The engagement ring.

Wondering why I'm wearing this ring? Am I engaged ? Am I married ? Am I separated ? Divorced ? Wouldn't you like to know.  Frankly that's not what this is about regardless of my current status.   And what your thoughts might be on this ring. This is going to be about the  insignificance of the diamond.  the rock.  the thing some women make such a huge fuss over that I never understood.  The fact that some women place their worth in a diamond is just ridiculous to me because as a lady we need to place our worth in Jesus not a diamond. That really has  nothing to say about what and who you really are. 

I find it shallow to place everything on a ring. If the man loves you and cares for you tremendously that shouldn't matter. Whatever he can afford should be fine. The size of the diamond does not ensure the mans love for you. You can have the biggest rock and the most emptiest marriage. And you can have the smallest rock with a healthy marriage. That should be of more importance.  Not the bling bling. They say whoever they are that diamonds are a girls best friend well not this girl. I can careless about a diamond I've always been this way even to the point I use to wonder is something wrong with me ? But nothing is wrong with me I'm just different and that's ok because it sure beats being like everyone else. 

Frankly speaking the ring I originally wanted was half this size. And the friend I showed it to at the time we will call her none of your business. She was astonished at the fact that it was so small and so cheap.  She even liked at me serious as she wants to be and says "girl your worth more than this"  I gave a look like what is that suppose to mean. I then told her that the size and amount doesn't matter to me I care more about the man the marriage and how we are together. How he treats me how we treat each other. His character those things are of more significance to me. Not how much money he's dishing out for a wedding ring. Call me different call me weird call me stupid I don't care. That's the way I am. And that's the way I'm going to be because that's me. I'm not into the materialistic  aspect of things.  

So ladies please take it easy on the whole hoop la on the size of the wedding ring. Let him get what he can afford let his heart and love be bigger than the rock. And please know where your real value and worth lies it's not in the size of a rock but in Christ Jesus. The lover and maker of your soul only in Him are you whole. Know yourself. Love yourself.  Enjoy spending time with God and yourself. Then no matter what cut size ring you have wouldn't determine your worth.  Sharing my thoughts only the best way I know how. 

Mireille Robinson. 

Thoughts

Anxiety how I hate you. I really need to degrade you. Sometimes I get scared when I don't need to. I worry at time when I don't need to my heart beats fast and I think God I need you. Anxiety how I hate you. I want fear to have no place in my heart yet it creeps in and starts. 

Only prayer and Jesus can heal me of this how I want this dismissed thinking of all the things I can miss when I allow fear to be boss in my life. Supportive love friends are ideal cause sometimes I just want to be with you Jesus for real. Knowing I can't leave this earth before my time I try and invest time in care for others I'm such a lover. So many things running through my head I wonder is there enough ink in the pen. 

I really use to like you back then. Wondering why I meet you now when I think we are suppose to be together somehow. Sometimes I think being with you robs me of that deep emotional intimacy I long for. Honestly I wonder what you marry me for. At times we fight only in love or war. 

To be loved what beauty in to be loved.  As my back sure presses up against my back rest I think how much I wish you were closer so I can hug you. Conversation with you have been the smile to my sadness. I pray for the day I'm free of all fear that will no longer be a part of me. 

By: Mireille Robinson 

Lately

Roses

I absolutely love taking pics I love roses they are such beauties to me. These babies have am astounding color they bring warm cuddly smiles to my face.

Let God be your Everything.

Just few things you may not know about me.

Few things prolly didn't know about me.
1. I've been hurt more by women than men. (why prefer male best friend)
2. I'm not as strong as people think that's cause my weakness is made strong in JESUS.
3. I do a lot of thinking praying reflecting and crying in the shower
4. I'm NOT stuck up as some have assumed in past and present.
5. I'm actually very sweet once you get to know and stop judging me off my looks. hair and gear.
6. I like natural remedies over medication
7. I love to smile Very friendly
8. My hair really is that long no weave tracks or fake hair.
9. I was sexually assaulted at the age of 19. ( attempted rape no rape thanks be to JESUS)
10. I'm not spoiled just loved
11. I hate alcohol with a passion drunk people use to scare me.

Attributes of A Woman.

To my fellow guys best way to get more physical attention from you wife is not to demand pester or black mail her about it. But to tap into her intellectually non sexually. It's when you do more non sexual things for her that she will want to more please you in ways you never imagined.

Women were made to connect. We can't have non emotional attached sex somewhere somehow we get attached we want to connect and be more than just a play thing. When a woman feels loved , secure, appreciated, acknowledged, accepted and beautiful she will more want to engage physically.

After a strained marriage or drought of emotional connection a woman can't just jump right back into sex like its nothing. It takes times lots and lots of talking, cuddling, praying together, cuddling and more and more cuddling talking intently listening. Unashamed open communication. Get comfortable enough to share anything with one another. There's an intimacy way beyond sex that sex can't touch it means so much more. To build that intimacy will set the tone for love making.

Romance for women starts before it hits the bedroom. Depending on the kind of woman you have the smallest thing can mean the most to her and turn her on. Once deposited into her love bank she doesn't forget it. Later that night you would be in for a night you won't forget. Women are delicacies we are to be handled with tender love and care. Learn the woman you have be intent and intentional about it. You won't be sorry you did.

Written By: Mireille Robinson